…..it seems I might be back on track again. I’m finding myself in the proper state of mind to draw, and create. My priorities are straighter then they’ve been in awhile, and all it took was a simple shift of my focus.
To give some of you who don’t know me so well, a little back story, my Dad decided to leave my Mom last year. As an final result, Mom ended up moving in with me. This put a lot of strain on my life at that time. Mom needed a lot of my support, and because she’s my Mom (and I love her :)) I did my best to be there for her. Combined with a new position at work, the falling out with Dad, and trying to still keep up my pursuit of being a full time comics artist, I broke down. I came down with a case of the shingles, which came the time of the San Diego Land Cruise, and that knocked a lot of wind out of my sails. I’ve been feeling a bit adrift for the last 5-6 months. I got caught back into the cycle of “Got to make time to draw”, “Got to get my priorities straight”. These are true statements, but the fact is though, as long as fear, and doubt are ruling my mind, I’ll never be able to make time. The moment that I remembered (how did I forget, I don’t know :)) how much I love working in this medium, my statements changed to “I’ll have to make time to do the dishes.”, “I guess I have to go pay the bills.” When my head is in the right place, I don’t have to try to make time. I just do it.
If I love drawing comics, and really want it, then it’s important to really focus on how much I do love it. Otherwise it’s too easy to get distracted, and then fear and doubt can take over, and suddenly my internal voice is saying “You’d never make it anyway”
Time will tell…..
…hopefully not too much more time, though. lol
Bri